de bi t ch. [Happiness is a journey, not a destination.]: friends.

Monday, June 20, 2005
friends.

i'm reminiscing again. but this time not abt the same old stuff i always reminisce abt. :D it's my friends. sigh. you know i was just looking around, then i was thinking abt a few of them. and i realised that indeed i have lost contact with many of them, whom i was once very close with. and i was thinking will we ever be that close again? not easy i guess. sigh. quite disheartening. :(

and then i was thinking abt those friends where our friendship turned very sour due to certain events. sigh. there are a couple where i still hope that i was still friends with them cos they were truly someone close to my heart. recently i met this other old friend (who's back in army now :( boohoo.) and he was telling me abt her. which made me realised why things turned out so bad. i mean i knew that she was definitely affected by that thing. but i din realised it was so my gosh. i know she'll nv read this but if she ever chance upon this blog good for her. and i just want to tell her that i really never meant to hurt you in any any way. well she prob knows that but like what she told me, i'm like a ghost to her, that haunts her. like she can't get forget certain things and get reminded of the hurt. duno la. sigh. thing is i dun even have the courage to call her up and ask her how's she doing. all i can do is ask indirectly. ask the pple who are her friends. and i'm glad she's doing fine. :D

and then there are other friends whom i wish i nv knew in the first place. but when i think back, there were memories. but memories worth to keep? that i do not know. funny feeling. sigh. weird weird weird.

aiya dun wana blog d. feel so depress. now i want to study for my final theory. bleah.

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